From the multimillion copy bestseller Amanda Prowse, the queen of heartbreak fiction. ***I deserve all this because I did the worst thing a woman can do.The very worst. Jessica's wedding was like a fairytale. Her dress strewn with crystals. Her dad made a tearful speech. Her husband Matthew declared himself the luckiest man alive.But when their beautiful baby girl is born, Jessica is gripped by panic.She can't tell anyone how she feels. Even when her life starts to spiral out of control...This is her story. A mother's story. ***Reviews for Amanda Prowse: 'Prowse handles her explosive subject with delicate skill...Deeply moving and inspiring' DAILY MAIL. 'Powerful and emotional family drama that packs a real punch' HEAT. 'A gut wrenching and absolutely brilliant read' IRISH SUN. 'Captivating, heartbreaking, superbly written' CLOSER. 'Very uplifting and positive, but you may still need a box (or two) of tissues' HELLO. 'An emotional, unputdownable read' RED. 'Prowse writes gritty, contemporary stories but always with an uplifting message of hope' SUNDAY INDEPENDENT.